Some days work is slow. Dealing with useless Government Employees, Problems that require days of fixing or just teachers who don't understand anything with buttons apart from shirts, it
can just make life... slow.

Don't get me wrong, I like my job. It pays the bills and I can work at my own pace but some days that pace... anyways.

This really has nothing to do with what I'm blogging about, except tell you where i am. See I've realised, while working at this job, that i have this little obsession.

As i walk around this school, there is a tiling floor (hope that is how you spell it) It is made up of a whole lot of red square with blue and yellow ones interspersed (again with the spelling) and it seems each time I walk somewhere I have to make a pattern in my head of which ones I step on. Not like to the fact that I'm jumping from one to another. Yeah that would be a little weird, but just to the fact that its like red blue yellow or something.

It's kinda weird that I've only just realised it because thinking back, while walking along a normal footpath (sidewalk for you North Americans out there) I have this thing where i have to take 3 steps per ever 2 slabs or something like that.

I mentioned this weird walking/counting fact to a friend because I didn't want to sound like a crazy person (even though you are probably thinking it right now) and she comforted me by saying that everyone has weird compulsive obsession things. Like little things that we need to do during the mundanes of life.

So I'm not sure how many of you still read this but if there's any of you out there, what compulsive/obsessive things do u have?

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I've been meaning to blog for a while but I can get distracted easily by games etc, but had some
random thoughts that will probably annoy some people or get people talking.

Or more likely people wouldn't care.

Anyways onto the random thoughts..

Why doesn't the majority of the world have common sense? I used to say they should teach that at university because no one ever used it there. I know we have a selfish world, but why can't people see past things sometime to the most common answer?

How do they get away calling "Red Rooster" fast food, when it takes forever to cook it?

Why is being in a maze so fun? Like I know if it was too big it be really annoying but on the other hand, it can be fun just getting lost. Or maybe I'm just weird.

Anytime we bring up the world "relationship" people always automatically think about love/marriage relationship? I think that this time in my life i really want to pursue the non love/marriage relationship, and it bugs me that everyone always wants that the love/marriage one for everyone else.

Whats your favourite words? Mine are Bucket and Muffin, and everyone laughs at me for that. Whats yours, so i can laugh at you for yours?

I guess that's some of my random thoughts at the moment that I've always wanted to get down. Nope not world changing, but I've never said that i would ever blog like that.

I'm just a simple man really

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I've always been told I'm a pretty smart guy. (Not to blow my own trumpet) I have a lot of female friends and they say that im pretty empathic to what they feel. (pretty sure my grammar isn't right there) But anyways what I'm trying to say is that I've been told that I can read females well (as well as a guy can). So well this leads me to an interesting position.

Not going to be naming names, as some friends might know these people, but in the past I did some short movies for a mate. And through these movies I met alot of new people and got to work with them closely for a good number of times. So this one lovely lady (everyone knew that was coming) was the music director on one of the films. A phenomenal singer and song writer, she wrote some sweet and haunting songs for the movie. I got to know her and saw her at the directors stuff now and then.

Some how (it was like 2.5 years ago, so i can't completely remember) we ended up catching up for dinner. It was nice and we just chatted it up about life and all. I spoke about going to Canada (which was like a week away) so it was a nice dinner, but didnt think anything of it as I was heading over seas to live.

Funny enough, this week I went to a christmas party of said director mate. And when the usual question about my singledom came up, someone mentioned that I'm STILL that usual 'heartbreaker'.
I'm like "what??!?", and then my mate went on to say that so much so that I'm in a song..

I completely did a double take.. Someone wrote a song about me? And in a vengeful way?

I'm not a harsh person, I hate hurting people (I think I've blogged about how much I hate it.) So this made me feel really bad. Especially since I didn't know anything about it.

According to the song (well I shouldn't give myself that, the VERSE thats about me), it seems that I am aloof and didn't read her signs. I didn't realise that her wearing Black Knee High Boots was a huge sign that something was up. Hahaha to me, that just mean she's got style, :)

But gee did it weird me out? When else have I hung out with a female friend and not realised it was a date, or there was more than I knew was going on? Man, it made me think back.
And if any of you females are reading, I'm sorry I didn't realise it.

Maybe I need to work on reading signs

*cough* Or females could be a bit more clearer about they're intentions. Now that will be another blog *cough*

So I could ask many questions, but... Whats the most unusual/unexpected revenge you have ever had pulled on you, or that you have done?

PS. I haven't heard this song, but I'm trying to find it, hehe I might even put it up if I can find it.

¶ 10:57 PM //  

Sometimes in life, you just have to realise it's over.

It's hard. You can't walk away without someone being hurt or feeling used over the situation. It's just not good.

No, this isn't another breakup/relationship blog. (well it has been a while since I've done one of those, hmmm. Maybe it's because I'm so over relationships now adays.)

Anyways..

Two days ago, I resigned from one of my jobs. I've been working two jobs for the last 9 months. This one took up my Wednesday and Thursdays. I was redesigning a website for an online Insurance broker (sounds thrilling huh?) I originally took the job to help out one of my great friends Adam (who's mum's BF is the boss) I was thinking the job wouldn't take too long, but here I am 9 months down the track and the project is still no where close to be finished.

That unfortunately, is because of me. See, as I've documented a lot of times, IT + ME = Not working. I'm freaking talented at IT/Tech stuff, but doing IT development has been killing me inside over the past couple of months. It's weird to look at it, and I feel really bad, but my motivation to actually do any IT work has just waned and I would come home after work just so depressed and tired. But I guess it has shown me that IT development may not be what I should be doing, so I guess I'm back onto my continual search for what I SHOULD be doing.

The reason I blog though, is that, it's freaking hard to quit a job. Even harder if its with one of your mates. See I have this eternal need to not upset or put people out. To the point that I hurt myself just to not hurt others. And leaving the work, and leaving them in the lurch, isn't something I want to do. Heck I've been talking about quitting for over 3 months, but only now, after a lot of prodding have i actually done it, just so don't want to put people out.

Now that I've done the resigning bit, how do I feel? Well, I don't feel like overly relieved (probably because i don't know what else I'll be doing) but I know that I'm now not a burden on this job and that they can move on to bigger and better things without me.

I think there are deeper issues going through this in me, but I'll think I'll leave it at that for the moment, and will talk about it more in another blog soon.

But just interested if anyone has any stories about when/why they quit their jobs?

¶ 8:00 PM //  

It's funny how songs can get to you. I can admit I'm lame and that I have a bizarre taste in music. But can I say at the end of Shrek 2, where they're fighting their way into the castle and I Need a Hero by Bonnie Tyler came on I was in there andwas one of the coolest motivational moments ever. Just a note as many old readers would know I don't listen to Lyrics so it must not have been the words.

anyways thats kinda not what i wanted to write about, even thought I had always wanted to share that. Just remember me anytime you hear that song, fighting my way to a princess.

ANYWAYS. I hate heroes...

Not your Indiana Jones/Wolverine/Batman kind of heroes. They're cool. I'm talking your (normally) Male aged between 10-40 kind that has a higher self appreciation that those around them

See, 2 days of my week I spend over an hour on public transport each way to my Job. I don't mind the trip, always find something to do, except for one thing.

Heroes..

In school I was the geek, the nerd, the quiet one, the smart one. I never really spoke up, never was the best at anything, never had any reason to talk about how good I was.
Heroes did. I heard them all the way through school. Heard them again at uni. Hear them at work.

I also hear them on public transport. The Prepubescant telling his mates how good his such and such is or the time he had 3 girlfriends. The Pubescant boy trying to impress the girl on how goodhis ipod is, and that she should get one, as well as her little sister. The Pre-Intoxicated one telling his work mates (and everyone else who he doesnt work with) how good his deal was, and how Johno and him will meet up at the pub late to get smashedThe Post-Intoxicated one telling the Lamp Post how good he is and how he should date his sister because shes tall and has some great lights ;)

I dont get it. People don't care about you being the centre of attention. People prefer to have actual conversations, heck Intellectual ones.

Well that is, unless your a dumb blonde..

Flame away.

PS. For another good rant Another One Bites the Dust!

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