I've always been told I'm a pretty smart guy. (Not to blow my own trumpet) I have a lot of female friends and they say that im pretty empathic to what they feel. (pretty sure my grammar isn't right there) But anyways what I'm trying to say is that I've been told that I can read females well (as well as a guy can). So well this leads me to an interesting position.

Not going to be naming names, as some friends might know these people, but in the past I did some short movies for a mate. And through these movies I met alot of new people and got to work with them closely for a good number of times. So this one lovely lady (everyone knew that was coming) was the music director on one of the films. A phenomenal singer and song writer, she wrote some sweet and haunting songs for the movie. I got to know her and saw her at the directors stuff now and then.

Some how (it was like 2.5 years ago, so i can't completely remember) we ended up catching up for dinner. It was nice and we just chatted it up about life and all. I spoke about going to Canada (which was like a week away) so it was a nice dinner, but didnt think anything of it as I was heading over seas to live.

Funny enough, this week I went to a christmas party of said director mate. And when the usual question about my singledom came up, someone mentioned that I'm STILL that usual 'heartbreaker'.
I'm like "what??!?", and then my mate went on to say that so much so that I'm in a song..

I completely did a double take.. Someone wrote a song about me? And in a vengeful way?

I'm not a harsh person, I hate hurting people (I think I've blogged about how much I hate it.) So this made me feel really bad. Especially since I didn't know anything about it.

According to the song (well I shouldn't give myself that, the VERSE thats about me), it seems that I am aloof and didn't read her signs. I didn't realise that her wearing Black Knee High Boots was a huge sign that something was up. Hahaha to me, that just mean she's got style, :)

But gee did it weird me out? When else have I hung out with a female friend and not realised it was a date, or there was more than I knew was going on? Man, it made me think back.
And if any of you females are reading, I'm sorry I didn't realise it.

Maybe I need to work on reading signs

*cough* Or females could be a bit more clearer about they're intentions. Now that will be another blog *cough*

So I could ask many questions, but... Whats the most unusual/unexpected revenge you have ever had pulled on you, or that you have done?

PS. I haven't heard this song, but I'm trying to find it, hehe I might even put it up if I can find it.

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Sometimes in life, you just have to realise it's over.

It's hard. You can't walk away without someone being hurt or feeling used over the situation. It's just not good.

No, this isn't another breakup/relationship blog. (well it has been a while since I've done one of those, hmmm. Maybe it's because I'm so over relationships now adays.)

Anyways..

Two days ago, I resigned from one of my jobs. I've been working two jobs for the last 9 months. This one took up my Wednesday and Thursdays. I was redesigning a website for an online Insurance broker (sounds thrilling huh?) I originally took the job to help out one of my great friends Adam (who's mum's BF is the boss) I was thinking the job wouldn't take too long, but here I am 9 months down the track and the project is still no where close to be finished.

That unfortunately, is because of me. See, as I've documented a lot of times, IT + ME = Not working. I'm freaking talented at IT/Tech stuff, but doing IT development has been killing me inside over the past couple of months. It's weird to look at it, and I feel really bad, but my motivation to actually do any IT work has just waned and I would come home after work just so depressed and tired. But I guess it has shown me that IT development may not be what I should be doing, so I guess I'm back onto my continual search for what I SHOULD be doing.

The reason I blog though, is that, it's freaking hard to quit a job. Even harder if its with one of your mates. See I have this eternal need to not upset or put people out. To the point that I hurt myself just to not hurt others. And leaving the work, and leaving them in the lurch, isn't something I want to do. Heck I've been talking about quitting for over 3 months, but only now, after a lot of prodding have i actually done it, just so don't want to put people out.

Now that I've done the resigning bit, how do I feel? Well, I don't feel like overly relieved (probably because i don't know what else I'll be doing) but I know that I'm now not a burden on this job and that they can move on to bigger and better things without me.

I think there are deeper issues going through this in me, but I'll think I'll leave it at that for the moment, and will talk about it more in another blog soon.

But just interested if anyone has any stories about when/why they quit their jobs?

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