Sometimes in life, you just have to realise it's over.

It's hard. You can't walk away without someone being hurt or feeling used over the situation. It's just not good.

No, this isn't another breakup/relationship blog. (well it has been a while since I've done one of those, hmmm. Maybe it's because I'm so over relationships now adays.)

Anyways..

Two days ago, I resigned from one of my jobs. I've been working two jobs for the last 9 months. This one took up my Wednesday and Thursdays. I was redesigning a website for an online Insurance broker (sounds thrilling huh?) I originally took the job to help out one of my great friends Adam (who's mum's BF is the boss) I was thinking the job wouldn't take too long, but here I am 9 months down the track and the project is still no where close to be finished.

That unfortunately, is because of me. See, as I've documented a lot of times, IT + ME = Not working. I'm freaking talented at IT/Tech stuff, but doing IT development has been killing me inside over the past couple of months. It's weird to look at it, and I feel really bad, but my motivation to actually do any IT work has just waned and I would come home after work just so depressed and tired. But I guess it has shown me that IT development may not be what I should be doing, so I guess I'm back onto my continual search for what I SHOULD be doing.

The reason I blog though, is that, it's freaking hard to quit a job. Even harder if its with one of your mates. See I have this eternal need to not upset or put people out. To the point that I hurt myself just to not hurt others. And leaving the work, and leaving them in the lurch, isn't something I want to do. Heck I've been talking about quitting for over 3 months, but only now, after a lot of prodding have i actually done it, just so don't want to put people out.

Now that I've done the resigning bit, how do I feel? Well, I don't feel like overly relieved (probably because i don't know what else I'll be doing) but I know that I'm now not a burden on this job and that they can move on to bigger and better things without me.

I think there are deeper issues going through this in me, but I'll think I'll leave it at that for the moment, and will talk about it more in another blog soon.

But just interested if anyone has any stories about when/why they quit their jobs?

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Tuliptwy said...
Hi there. I just recently quit a job where I loved everyone I worked with but the work was so freakin' vast and overwhelming it was just amazing. So, I warned my managers and those who would have to do my work that I was looking, but I still felt so guilty and badly when I accepted the new job - it was difficult. I gave notice the day I had my performance evaluation and blew my boss out of the water. I hear things are pretty stressful there now and I feel badly for them, but I am glad of the choice I made. I work close to home in a much less stressful job and for just a weensie bit less money - it is so worth it.

Toodles!  

Mary said...
Hey!

I had to quit my job this summer at camp because it was just so stressful and I couldn't take my boss and the staff. It was suppose to be a Christian camp, but it didn't feel like a Christian environment. I prayed about it for weeks before I knew for certian and had the courage to quit. It was probably the hardest thing because I had gone to that camp since I was a kid and had worked there for the past 4 summers. But in the end it was a better for me because I felt God telling me to do it.  

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