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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Self Imaging or Imagining?
I have found it! The first picture ever I think I look cool in....
So what do you think?
I look so rugged; there is a first for everyone. This photo was taken during filming the promotional video for the Ignite Program (that I’m on) I'm (co)Producing it, working the camera, and during one of the scenes, the man in the back was breaking apart an old desk and making a racket (sp) so I decided to go help him finish the desk off, so he could be on his way and we could continue filming.
But I look cool (don't worry about the modesty thing its coming soon), see this is kind of a different thing to me. Growing up a camera was foreign after the age of 12 or so I stopped being in photos, not sure what happened, maybe the usual puberty growing stopped it, or maybe that was when I was defining my self image, but well there wasn't any photos. The next one I remember was me with the worst flat top hair cut ever, and that made me again not want photos.
See when I ever saw myself, and still till today, I don't equate what I actually look like to what I think I look like. It's hard to imagine that’s me, and when I see myself in photos I just don't like the look. And I know most (note I said most) people feel this way.
My guess it all comes from self esteem (okay maybe not all). I know that contrary to my persona, I have a pretty low self esteem (my confidence comes from over compensating) and the fact that I didn't look as 'cool' or 'good' as I hoped was just my imagination.
But I'm thinking as I more and more understand how much God actually loves us and that if he loves us and gave his son for us, why shouldn't we love ourselves. This is a hard concept to get around, I know I fight self worth problems all the time, but I know that the more I do feel worthy, the more God is apparent to me.
So what you do think? Don’t think u look the way you do? Think my picture is cool? :)
said...
UR Picture is HOT!!! but so is your consession card from 2000!! If only i could find the dig cam so everyone else can see how hot you were too! lol :oP
Here is the aformentioned Card
(its Concession with a 'c' Lis)
Click Here
Tis a very cool photo!!! I never know what I look like any more. I change my hair too often to remember. I look in the mirror and go "Wow whose the blonde/brunette/red head etc.???" well maybe not quite that extreme. I sometimes look good in photos I sometimes don't but I regret not capturing moments even if I do look like a dork...
Listen dude, you pic is cool, but it pales in comparison with me in my Porsche at Germany, or better yet, that britney spears pic! Paste that one all over the net, I DARE you! lol.
-DC
Here u go people, Danno Spears
Click here
cover your eyes :P
bleh... i was hoping to never see that pic of dan again, it's just disturbing!
you're pic's pretty cool though, very natural looking i guess.
- rowe
Oh man..I wasn't expecting that! What a horrible image that is now burned into my mind...:P
how bizarre that you can have your coolest photo when it looks like you have your eyes closed!! good effort!! i'm not very photogenic at all...my eyes are almost ALWAYS shut!!!grrrrr!! A good pic for me is one where i've managed to look awake/alive!!
Matt told me to post a comment. Hooray! I think the guy behind you looks cooler. No offence buddy. But I'll always know you as a computer geek, therefore ruling out any hint of coolness that may come along! Ohhh JUST KIDDING!!! You are very cool looking. Dark hair, blue eyes... it's a winner! Blog about that!
Positive, positive... blah blah blah!
i thought this was supposed to be a shallow and flighty blog right from its inception, but no... there you go getting all profound on me.
*sigh*
to me, you'll always be the epitome of cool - based predominantly on that picture.
epitome, now that is a cool word
Ok I just looked up epitome in the dictonary and it said something about an abstract in a book, I know what an abstract is but now I'm even more confused about what epitome is???
here you go
Dictionary.com's Definition of Epitome
A representative or example of a class or type
Thanks that makes a lot more sense now. And next time that word comes up in conversation I won't feel dumb.
Hey! I think that your picture looks great! The guy in the background looks pretty good too!
I don't believe a picture can ever really capture a person's soul, the "inner person" and who we truly are ...
So ... I stopped searching for the perfect picture of me LONG ago ... and have resigned myself to the fact that my personality FAR exceeds my "photogenisim" :)
However, this IS a good picture of you ... no doubt.
So what do you think?
I look so rugged; there is a first for everyone. This photo was taken during filming the promotional video for the Ignite Program (that I’m on) I'm (co)Producing it, working the camera, and during one of the scenes, the man in the back was breaking apart an old desk and making a racket (sp) so I decided to go help him finish the desk off, so he could be on his way and we could continue filming.
But I look cool (don't worry about the modesty thing its coming soon), see this is kind of a different thing to me. Growing up a camera was foreign after the age of 12 or so I stopped being in photos, not sure what happened, maybe the usual puberty growing stopped it, or maybe that was when I was defining my self image, but well there wasn't any photos. The next one I remember was me with the worst flat top hair cut ever, and that made me again not want photos.
See when I ever saw myself, and still till today, I don't equate what I actually look like to what I think I look like. It's hard to imagine that’s me, and when I see myself in photos I just don't like the look. And I know most (note I said most) people feel this way.
My guess it all comes from self esteem (okay maybe not all). I know that contrary to my persona, I have a pretty low self esteem (my confidence comes from over compensating) and the fact that I didn't look as 'cool' or 'good' as I hoped was just my imagination.
But I'm thinking as I more and more understand how much God actually loves us and that if he loves us and gave his son for us, why shouldn't we love ourselves. This is a hard concept to get around, I know I fight self worth problems all the time, but I know that the more I do feel worthy, the more God is apparent to me.
So what you do think? Don’t think u look the way you do? Think my picture is cool? :)
said...
UR Picture is HOT!!! but so is your consession card from 2000!! If only i could find the dig cam so everyone else can see how hot you were too! lol :oP
Here is the aformentioned Card
(its Concession with a 'c' Lis)
Click Here
Tis a very cool photo!!! I never know what I look like any more. I change my hair too often to remember. I look in the mirror and go "Wow whose the blonde/brunette/red head etc.???" well maybe not quite that extreme. I sometimes look good in photos I sometimes don't but I regret not capturing moments even if I do look like a dork...
Listen dude, you pic is cool, but it pales in comparison with me in my Porsche at Germany, or better yet, that britney spears pic! Paste that one all over the net, I DARE you! lol.
-DC
Here u go people, Danno Spears
Click here
cover your eyes :P
bleh... i was hoping to never see that pic of dan again, it's just disturbing!
you're pic's pretty cool though, very natural looking i guess.
- rowe
Oh man..I wasn't expecting that! What a horrible image that is now burned into my mind...:P
how bizarre that you can have your coolest photo when it looks like you have your eyes closed!! good effort!! i'm not very photogenic at all...my eyes are almost ALWAYS shut!!!grrrrr!! A good pic for me is one where i've managed to look awake/alive!!
Matt told me to post a comment. Hooray! I think the guy behind you looks cooler. No offence buddy. But I'll always know you as a computer geek, therefore ruling out any hint of coolness that may come along! Ohhh JUST KIDDING!!! You are very cool looking. Dark hair, blue eyes... it's a winner! Blog about that!
Positive, positive... blah blah blah!
i thought this was supposed to be a shallow and flighty blog right from its inception, but no... there you go getting all profound on me.
*sigh*
to me, you'll always be the epitome of cool - based predominantly on that picture.
epitome, now that is a cool word
Ok I just looked up epitome in the dictonary and it said something about an abstract in a book, I know what an abstract is but now I'm even more confused about what epitome is???
here you go
Dictionary.com's Definition of Epitome
A representative or example of a class or type
Thanks that makes a lot more sense now. And next time that word comes up in conversation I won't feel dumb.
Hey! I think that your picture looks great! The guy in the background looks pretty good too!
I don't believe a picture can ever really capture a person's soul, the "inner person" and who we truly are ...
So ... I stopped searching for the perfect picture of me LONG ago ... and have resigned myself to the fact that my personality FAR exceeds my "photogenisim" :)
However, this IS a good picture of you ... no doubt.